Of course, by Tuesday I was excited to resume my tradition of meeting Lily for a brick workout on the BWI trail. We did a 15 mile bike ride and 30 minute run. Wednesday morning, I met Mike for five miles at Loch Raven, to do the ultimate hill training, or in our case, catch up while running slowly up some hills. The views don't hurt.
When I got back I logged on to Facebook to discover it was National Running Day, so, consider that checked off.
This morning, I did seven easy miles. I was honestly dreading this run, until I made the executive decision to leave my Garmin at home, and then I started looking forward to it. I know, it's shocking - I did a run with NO electronics. Insane.
It's really because I have such a love/hate relationship with Daily Mile. Who doesn't love signing in after one of those super great runs where you were extra speedy without even trying and proudly posting your stats? But I knew today wasn't about to be one of those days, and sometimes I just can't handle the shame of posting yet another slow run.
I know, no one really cares how fast or slow I run. But it stresses me out way more than is necessary. I'll spend the entire run staring at my Garmin, constructing excuses in my head, and feeling terrible about myself and the embarrassment of having to make my pathetic run public. Actually, now I'm embarrassed to even admit that, but that's how I roll.
Running isn't easy for me. Oh wait, just kidding, it's not easy for anyone, because it's running. If it is easy for someone who is reading this, please correct me. I love setting new PRs, I love the feeling of leaving the track after a hard workout, but I also love runs like the one I did on Wednesday morning where I was just taking in some pretty views while chatting with a friend. I'm so not one of those people that hates to run slow, and I really don't feel like obsessing about my pace during every single run. Sure, I'll do speedwork during training, and at that point, I'll try to hit certain paces, and it will make sense to be upset if I don't hit them. But right now, I'm just running for good times and to stay in shape, so maybe I should take a break from the Garmin. Or even Daily Mile?
This post got a little more intense than I intended....I'll blame my stress over trying to write a research paper on top of report cards and all the other end of the school year crap I'm worried about. That sounds like a good excuse.
Does anyone obsess over their pace as much as I do, or am I just crazy?